I Don’t Know

I Don’t Know

I don’t know what I want.
Why are you so awesome?
I don’t know what I want.
Watcha up to?
I don’t know what I want.
Wanna chill?
I don’t know what I want.
You’re so hot.
I don’t know what I want.
What do you wanna do?
I don’t know what I want.
Come here.
I don’t know what I want.
You smell good.
I don’t know what I want.
I could stare at your face all day.
I don’t know what I want.
I think about you all the time.
I don’t know what I want.
I’m obsessed with you.
I don’t know what I want.
I don’t want a relationship with you.

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Still

Still

I still see you.
          Everytime.
    The way your eyes
          Widen when you speak.
    The way you look
          Towards the sky
               Unnecessarily.

Your fake drama.
Your fake pain.

     The way you smirk
          In jestful judge.

I still feel you.
     Proximity only serves to
          Remind me of
             Our Touch.
     Proximity shows me often
          What it is
             That I can’t have.

I still notice
     When you change.
          A simple trim of
        Your hair.
          Or a drastic change of
             Your mane.

I still hear you.
     Those whispers
     Those words
          Your silver tongue.

But now I see you.
     Proximity shows me
          What I don’t want.
     Proximity shows me
          What I don’t need.

But then I remember.
     I want.
     I desire.
     I hope.
     I dream.
     I remember.
     I remember clearly.

     I wish I could forget.

     Forget the pain.
     Forget the love.
     Forget the hurt.
     Forget the hope.
     Forget it all.

I still see you.
     All the time.
          You’re in my dreams.
          You’re on my mind.
          You’re in my hopes.

I still see you.
I still remember.
I still feel you.
I still hear you.
I still want you.

Quotable Friday: Dr. Seuss

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This quote is currently relevant to my life, but I’m not sure how I feel about it. I feel like it is definitely good advice. It’s better to dwell on the positive things in life. You’ll have a much better everyday attitude in that case, but at the same time, pain is a part of life, and it’s important to let yourself cry every now and then. Sometimes a good cry is what you need. It’s like a physical representation that everything is not okay at the moment and the fact that that there’s water sliding down your face shows your human side. It shows you letting out your emotions which is much better than holding them in all the time. I’m not saying we should go around crying about everything all the time though. Allow yourself to feel the pain and hurt life might throw at you, but after letting out what may feel like negative emotions (they’re really not. Sadness is important), focus on the positive things in your life, or even the positive aspects of the situation that made you cry. Trust me, it leaves you so much happier in the long run. Dr. Seuss was on the right track with this quote, I do promote it, but it’s also important to cry every so often. We’re only human after all.